To my readers,
This is one door out of my many possible vulnerability scratching for release against my anxiety.
I want to share a piece of myself with you, a sort of time slowing realm I’ve walked in. The world calls it Patience, I call her a test of will, pure, tempting with rage, a sort of defiance screaming for release, a breath of fresh air, wanting to embrace all the calm because now she has realized what her space is. Once trampled on, she no longer feels the freedom of self as much as she used to and it hurts and breaks her ability for want, for joy, for happiness, for peace. And it is through this point in time that realization blesses her memory with the comfort of the past, the lost of age in fact now more welcoming and embracing in the folds that let it seem like darkness could never yield anything beautiful and kind.
I have been thinking about writing for a while but the truth is, I don’t write because I’m scared and too chicken to hear myself. I’m basically trapped in my own mind and solely existing. Zombified and petrified with no voice eager to scream out loud, this fear holding me down, preventing me from fully releasing myself, of ever feeling free? Deceives because I have felt freedom. I’ve tasted the silence in my mind and it’s open and comfortable. Safe!. It is like breathing in to breathe out a sense of normalcy, similar to a sigh.
In my entrapment I noticed a pattern, everything around me began to feel like a lesson, one I didn’t pay attention to in the first place. I followed this pattern, listening and without questioning, just opening my eyes to newer perspectives. I’m now looking inwards and wanting to vibe with my soul more, being in my mind had clustered reality behind my eyes, denying me a session with the being itself. I want to fully explore this inner intellect, the invisible vibrations that sync with your body as you express your true-self.
It is divine, unnatural but real, alive and intriguing. So I welcome you towards this chapter I call, “DECLUTTERING MY MIND.”
I hope you touch and feel yourself within 🙂
Nnenna.
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